Trauma is such an interesting experience, the brain seeming to be sliced into multiple parts. You can go through the motions through one part, then another section is panicking, another part numb and another part watching the whole thing take place with curiosity and intrigue. It’s a true observer based experience, which is in truth what we are working with in spirituality.
In the thick of it, the insanity is the emotions. You simply can’t rationalise the experience, from inappropriate humour, to crying at odd moments, to feeling elated, then destitute. No amount of minimising and ‘at least we are not in X country experiencing Y, we are so lucky’ actually helps. You just have to put one foot in front of the other and feel all the feels.
I have found personally with trauma, that it’s not within the experience that you can see the moon, but actually once the barn has stopped smouldering. Looking wildly for the silver linings through the smoke is futile. Yet, knowing the smoke will clear eventually, and the moon will be revealed, takes patience. Thankfully patience costs nothing, gratitude is free, love also free, and so leaning into them throughout an experience is available to everyone.
Sent with love,
Jac x