One of the often unnerving things that come with wisdom, is seeing parts of ourselves, that once recognised, cannot be unseen. Growth, isn’t always fluid. It can be at times challenging, deflating and rough. And at times delightful, beautiful and brave. I remember a therapist I once saw saying there’s usually a moment when things get tough when people bow out of therapy. I know that for our meditation students, it’s generally the exact time they need meditation the most that they stop practicing. Personal trainers and yoga teachers that are friends, always say they know when life is tough for students when they stop showing up.
Firstly, we must recognise that this is very, very normal. When things get uncomfortable, we generally have a little freak out and drop the things that might support us through this time. It’s a process that shouldn’t involve any shame, and definitely not guilt, if we can accept AHHH THIS IS IT! Part of the path. The only way it being through.
With this awareness we can begin to step forward. We can work with, not against our humanity, and accept it as just another facet of the kaleidoscope.